Refocus
There are so many things going on in my life right now; and I suddenly realized that it is time to re-evaluate my life and refocus. For a long time, I have lived the journey of a special needs parent. However, my son is growing up, and although he will have cerebral palsy for the rest of his life, he seems to be growing out of the complications of having CP. He no longer has yearly check ups or endless appointments for speech or physio or occupational therapy.
The last year of my life has been a little chaotic. Last year, I decided to cease operation of the foundation. I quit my medical transcription job, and I decided to just rest. We went to Disneyland in January(2019) and bought a home in St. Albert in March (2019). Moving to St. Albert has been a great opportunity for our whole family, and we now are closer in distance to my sister and brother.
So, I have had some time to rest, and refocus. Recently, I was talking to a friend of mine and we talked about people using the term "I need to find myself"... I don't need to find myself, I have always been right here! Life isn't a game of hide and go seek with oneself. However, I do think that it isn't really about finding yourself per se, but rather about finding your place in the world. I realized that I need to re-find my own place in the world. I no longer identify as a special needs parent, but (don't get me wrong, I am not having an identity crisis) I think that refocusing is good. I am moving on to the next stage of my life.
I have decided that in the next phase of my life, I want to be a nurse. This is a dream that I have had for a long time, but I lacked the math courses needed for admission into the program. I was researching the LPN program again, and realized that a special math course is now available and a passing grade can get me in!
You are never too old to set a new goal or dream a new dream! So keep on keeping on- I am going to be almost 43 years old when I actually start nursing school, but I am so excited for this next phase!
I love that God's mercies are new every morning. I have an opportunity (and so do you) to start each day with a clean slate.
I don't want to forget in all of this, that it is God who has allowed me to get to this place, and He is the one who has provided (for our home, and for all the opportunities that have unfolded.)
*The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases, his Mercies never come to an end, they are new every morning, Great is thy Faithfulness. (Lamentations 3:22, 23)
The last year of my life has been a little chaotic. Last year, I decided to cease operation of the foundation. I quit my medical transcription job, and I decided to just rest. We went to Disneyland in January(2019) and bought a home in St. Albert in March (2019). Moving to St. Albert has been a great opportunity for our whole family, and we now are closer in distance to my sister and brother.
So, I have had some time to rest, and refocus. Recently, I was talking to a friend of mine and we talked about people using the term "I need to find myself"... I don't need to find myself, I have always been right here! Life isn't a game of hide and go seek with oneself. However, I do think that it isn't really about finding yourself per se, but rather about finding your place in the world. I realized that I need to re-find my own place in the world. I no longer identify as a special needs parent, but (don't get me wrong, I am not having an identity crisis) I think that refocusing is good. I am moving on to the next stage of my life.
I have decided that in the next phase of my life, I want to be a nurse. This is a dream that I have had for a long time, but I lacked the math courses needed for admission into the program. I was researching the LPN program again, and realized that a special math course is now available and a passing grade can get me in!
You are never too old to set a new goal or dream a new dream! So keep on keeping on- I am going to be almost 43 years old when I actually start nursing school, but I am so excited for this next phase!
I love that God's mercies are new every morning. I have an opportunity (and so do you) to start each day with a clean slate.
I don't want to forget in all of this, that it is God who has allowed me to get to this place, and He is the one who has provided (for our home, and for all the opportunities that have unfolded.)
*The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases, his Mercies never come to an end, they are new every morning, Great is thy Faithfulness. (Lamentations 3:22, 23)
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